虽然我很开心在今年我和我的另一半终于踏出了迈向未来的第一步，但2013 年对于我来说并不是一个很令人开心的年份。在这一年里有三个我认识的人相续的离开了这个世界。或许是人开始长大了就必须经历这一类型的事情，但这个数目已经超出了人可以接受的界限吧。

其中两个是我在砂拉越第一次遇到的人，她们人很好、健谈，但就因为一些事情而导致她们走向这条不归路。当时的我很错愕，无法想象那么开朗的人就这么的离开了我们。她们甚至无法参加我们的婚礼。当我想：“应该不会再有更坏的了吧” 的时候，在距离二零一四年倒数第四天，我收到了一个更令我吃惊的消息。我好朋友的女朋友竟然因病逝世了。她才二十七岁而已！我相信她自己也没想到竟然她的人生要在那天结束了。。。

今天去参加了她的丧礼，在出殡的时候她的家人、男朋友、读书时认识的朋友全都哭成泪人。虽然我认识她的时间不长，但是我一直都以为我们这几个朋友都可以在几年后各自带自己的伴，一起去游玩、旅行。我认识了她男朋友这么多年，这次是我第一次看到他那么伤心的流眼泪。我实在无法想像之前还来我父母档口和我父母说话的那一对恩爱的情侣，现在其中一个竟然只能安静的躺在棺木里，再也不会讲话。在她弟弟按下那一个按钮将他姐姐送去焚化炉时，我朋友还有她家人的哀嚎声让身边的人都能感受到他们的不舍、难过。我朋友说他们打算要明年要去注册，但想不到这个计划永远都不能实现了。。。

至今当我想到之前大伙儿一起出去游玩、烧烤、喝酒、谈天的画面，我还是会忍不住的落泪。我朋友当时说：“她很坏的，就这样留下我一个人。是不想让我看到她变老的样子而已吧。现在这两天还好，至少我还可以在她的棺木旁边陪她说话。出殡了之后我实在不知道日子要如何过。” 用“闻者伤心，听者流泪”这句话应该能够表现出当时的情景。

我不知道我朋友他要如何熬过这一段如此伤心的路。时间能够使人忘记当时的伤感，但我相信他需要很长的时间才可以做得到这件事。我知道她不会希望看到她心爱的家人和他那么伤心，但愿她能保佑我朋友和她的家人能够早日从悲伤中站起来。

很开心我有幸能够认识你。如果真的有来世，希望这些不幸不会再落到你的身上。你安息吧，一路好走。

Dear Future Yin,
At this moment, while you are writing this, you are very much in love with this guy, who is far from perfect but deep inside your heart, you knew that he is the perfect one for you.

Still remember the first time you met him? Yeah, he was never in your list of the ideal guy. Somehow, from friends to become best friends and now, he is your other half :) You always say that he is very kayu and a hopeless romantic but did you remember how much he has changed since you guys got together? Both of you have change to a better person. He learnt to become optimistic, less grumpy and gained a little bit of fashion sense. LOL! He knows that one thing that matters the most for you in a relationship is the feeling of secure. So, he always try to make you feel like you can totally rely on him about anything. He is spoiling you and turning you into a clingy girlfriend, which you really enjoy :)

Still remember how he become your sandbag when you are being tested physically and mentally in Spaoh? Yes, Spaoh.. The most terrible place you ever been to. But hey, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. You're a survivor and you know you can survive now even if they throw you in the middle of a jungle or desert. Hehe.. During that period of time, you are like a time bomb, which can explode anytime but that kayu guy risked his 'life', stayed beside this time bomb. And of course, he survived! :-P Such a strong man huh...

Still remember how he flew to your hometown, just to be by your side. when you lost one of the beautiful gems in your life? You told him it's not necessary to do so because he still got tonnes of work waiting for him. But he came because he knew that you are not as strong as you have shown to people around you. Year 2013 was very tough, very very tough.. You were being tested once again when you lost the second gem :( You lost all your hope & faith, your world turned grey but you don't know how to share it with anybody. You packed all your emotions (anger, sad, disappointment, despair, hopeless, grief) into a baggage and brings it everywhere. You started to distant yourself from him and your friends. But your silly piggy, being the optimistic one, patiently helped you to slowly unpack the baggage and told you. "It's ok not to be strong, it's ok to cry.." He has been there with you throughout all of these tests, no matter how many times you chased him away :)

The year 2013 witnessed both of you made a few important commitments. The first one will be the piggy crib. Hahaha! That's what you guys called it right? After searching high and low for almost half a year, you guys chose one which you guys think is the perfect one to start a piggy family, a place to raise piggy children and to grow old together. Oh! Did you get him the Husky he always ask for? How about your sausage dog? You must be having a hard time vacuuming the house, cleaning the doggies and taking them for a walk :-P

Few weeks ago, you found out that he need to undergo a knee surgery. Can you remember how you feel? Let me help you to recall. He expected a scolding from you for not taking care of himself. But instead, you didn't and you told him, "Baby, let's get married and let me take care of you for the rest of your life..." You're not saying this because you want a ticket to transfer out of Spaoh but because at that very moment, you knew for sure he is THE ONE you want to spend the rest of your life with and you don't want to waste anymore time to be separated.  He laughed it off and said. "No, I should be the one saying that to you. Don't you want a real proposal?" That's how he rejected your 'proposal' FYL. However, he made you the lucky girl who got proposed twice!! Hahaha!




What kind of flowers he bought for you this year? I remember he promised you that he will buy you flowers every year. How about your birthday cakes? I bet he learnt a lot of new recipes already and improved a lot :) How about you?  Still do the online searching for  home cook recipes? You said you want to keep his
heart through his big round tummy. HAHAHA!!

Yin, I hope that you will never forget the ups and downs of LDR you guys have faced to get to where you guys are today; the heartaches both of you felt whenever you guys have to separate, the endless tears and most importantly, how much you guys enjoy each other companions. He might annoy you sometimes but you know you will miss those annoying things when he is not around. Like this,

Not everyone is able to find someone who knew all your flaws and weaknesses but still accept you the way you are. You know deep inside your heart, you have found that someone. So, stop scolding him for being indecisive or coming back late and cause your tomyam to become dry or winning you over a stupid candy game! p/s Did they come out with the advance version of candy crush? :-P

I sincerely hope that you guys are as happy as both of us are now. Appreciate every moment k.. Cause life is too short :)


Love,
The Present Yin